[SHARE] What Are You Afraid Of?

"每个人有自己的害怕"

Mei ge ren you zi ji de hai pa. That's how you read the Chinese words above. That sentence mean "Every one have their own fear".

Once, I watched a drama. In that drama, there's a 17 years old boy who have a heart disease. He suffered that disease for more than 7 years. In that 7 years, don't know how many times he had to stay at the hospital. Every time he came out of hospital, he went to school, but there's nobody who want to be friend with him. Besides, his parents divorce and no one want to take care of him. Everyday he was always alone. Until one day, he became an actor. Then, everyone want to be close to him. But deep in his heart, he felt that those people didn't really care for him.

When he was 17, his disease got worse. He should undergo a surgery in order to keep his life, but he refused the surgery. He thought his life was no longer meaningful without family and friends around him.

Until one day, he saw a 5 years old boy who suffered chicken pox wandering on the streets. That boy entered a small shop to buy a bread. Thinking that the boy could transmit his disease, the shop's owner drove the boy out of the shop and didn't let him enter the shop again. The little boy didn't cry and wasn't angry, he just came to his daddy and asked if he wasn't good looking enough so that the owner drove him away. His daddy answered that he is the most beautiful boy in the world, because the true beauty doesn't come from physical appearance but comes from the heart. So as long as you have the purest heart, you are the most beautiful person in the world.

Seeing this event, the 17 years old boy finally decided to take the surgery to be able to survive and having a brand new life.

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If you don't get what the story is about, then don't worry. I also didn't get it at first. Why he suddenly want to take the surgery just by seeing that event? And more of that, this is only drama and I don't think that can be happen in real life.

But like the sentence above said, everyone have their own fear. That's true and truly happen in real life. Who in this world wasn't afraid of anything? The problem is whether you know your fear yourself? And if you really know, can you overcome it?

Since this is a sharing session, let me share a little thing to you. I personally have so many things that I'm afraid of, but I think my biggest fear is I'm afraid of loneliness. When I was 3 years old, my daddy passed away. Since that, my mommy was busy working and everyday I was just with my big sister. When I was 7 years old, my best friend moved to another city and I haven't met her until now. When I was 10 years old, because of a misunderstanding, my friends avoided me. When I was 12 years old, my sister studied in other city so we rarely meet up. When I was 17, I had my first boyfriend who I loved so much. But then, due to my family's problems, I should study in other city so I can't be in the same university with him. Not long after that, we broke up.

Because I have lost so many important people in my life, I'm really really afraid of loneliness. Sometimes my fear becomes my own obstacles. I become so afraid to step forward. I'm afraid if there's nobody there then what should I do? That imagination usually stops me from walk ahead and makes me stay still in my current place.

But lately (when I watched that drama I mentioned before for the second time), I realize, everyone have their own fear and the problem is not about your fear but how you overcome it. Like the 17 years old boy I told you before. Because he saw that poor little boy, his kindness beat his fear. He finally have a reason to stay alive and be something to others.

Talking is easier, I know that. But these days, I'm thinking of pursuing my dreams and do what I have not had time to do. I maybe want to go to a very far away place without anyone I know beside me. If I'm imagining how I will be without anyone there or will my friends forget me when I come back, I will be afraid, of course. But I want to step forward and overcome this obstacle.

Remember, everything comes from yourself. If you never dare to fight against yourself, you will never learn anything. Even if you fail in the end, at least you have tried your best.

If you still can't face your own fear, you should look for your strength. Make it as your biggest weapon to fight against your fear. If there's a will, there will be a way.

Hope this sharing session can help you a little. Feel free to ask me about anything or tell me your opinion. And I would really love to hear your story. So, feel free to share your story here. I believe many people also want to hear it.

Have a great day :)